Digging into "Mindful of Race" by Ruth King. It's a viscerally uncomfortable read, but also quite clarifying. After reading a few chapters, I ended with some Big Mind practice, exploring what all I notice as a white person...
As a white person I notice that I'm looking for ways to solve the problem of racism.
As a white person I notice that I'm comfortable in my own skin.
As a white person I notice that I'm often surrounded by other white people.
As a white person I notice that my whiteness is often invisible, unless I'm around other non-white people.
As a white person I notice that I often get defensive when my whiteness is attacked.
As a white person I notice I am proud of many aspects of Western culture, including Western philosophy & science.
As a white person I notice that I am angry & scared.
As a white person I notice that there is guilt, shame, & sadness.