I’ve been on autopilot for too long. It’s time to shape the path and not be shaped by it.

Even knowing this, I still feel resistance.

Had a good chat with a couple friends about a week or so ago. They were helping me work thru some thoughts and had some good insights that were also true.

I noticed something about myself in that each time an uncomfortable truth was suggested my gut reaction was to negate it.

I had to actively resist my impulse to deflect so that I could listen to truly helpful perspectives.

The most blaring truth that I didn’t want to be right: I lack concrete vision.

I’ve spent a lot of time building an arsenal to contend with the world, but no larger vision on how to lead a path with it.

It’s funny that resistance doesn’t feel like resistance until you’re aware of it. Until you notice how automatic your own avoidance was, or still is, it simply feels natural.

Talking things out is important even if you have to fumble around without a central point for a while.

Eventually you get to the source of tension or resistance, but you may have to “Trojan horse” your way there.

You may even still avoid areas of resistance or tension, but once you see them you can’t unsee them. It’s good because now you know. It’s bad because... well, know you know. And you know you have to do something about it.