Doing research on music therapy and anxiety and realizing I had SM ...what they're calling 'selective mutism' ...as a kid. Until about 7 or 8, I spoke a shit ton around family and my pets, but never outside. Everyone thought they're was something seriously wrong with me. Well...

.., there was. But nothing quite having to do with being quiet. If I think about it, my social discomfort and shyness ultimately was built up over time because I felt people ' didn't understand me ', so to speak.
Everyone thought there* was something wrong..smh I hate letters.

and obviously I think some of that was present then but it got worse as I sort of felt like I had to speak in order to be...accepted by people. ??
I was an odd child and I turned into an even odder adult. Mostly because I've gotten tired of years of playing the social..

acceptability game. But I still have social issues. I'm just learning to try and be less anxiety ridden about them. Not easy, but then again, I'm just tired.

But as you can see, I'm a total annoying chatterbox on here. So I think some of that SM is still present.
LOL