5 Years ago, I was """misgendered""" at the airport when I was going for my first visit to the US, a lady working the bag security called me "Ma'am". Which made me smile, I thought it was funny haha. A funny anecdote to tell my friends when I got to the states.

But I didnt tell anyone. It didn't make me smile because it was funny. In fact it wasn't funny at all. It would pop back up into my head for 5 years straight when im laying in bed. "Hey remember that?" my brain will say in the dead of night. "Remember how that made you feel?"

"It didn't make you smile because it was funny, it made you smile because it was *correct*. You weren't misgendered. You were correctly gendered. Thats why it stuck out" at which point I tell my brain to fuck off and ignore it.

Telling myself "You just like crossdressing. And feeling feminine. And shaving. And being called feminine terms." Basically ticking every box for gender non-conformity I could and using every excuse in the book. "Too old. Too late. Too ugly. Too fat."

But those last ones there? Those are a little brain trick. Without even realizing it, you've admitted to yourself you WOULD be trans/GNC. But if it wasn't for those things "blocking" you. Its my brain trying to take the easy way out of what it thinks is a tough question.

I've had TF for transfemme on my profile for a bit, and nonbinary for way longer than that, so people paying attention might've copped. The reality is im not any different than I was 8 years ago when I started doing GNC stuff. Just wanting to be called the correct pronouns really

Theres still some "masculine" terms im fine with, mainly ones to do with gender nonconformity like femboy but I would prefer it if stuff like that is used by people I know, who I know to be using them in good faith. Same goes for misgendering, if people make a mistake I dont mind

For actual transition related stuff Ive been telling people to please set their expectations as low as they go. Due to real life issues to do with governments, transition stuff like HRT, name changes ect, if I ever do decide to do them are AT LEAST 2-3 years away.

I have extreme anxieties about presenting as NBTF and then showing up to a con or something and have people expecting one thing and then be like "its a dude." I feel like people are a lot better about this now in this community, which is one of the reasons im doing this now.

Sorry for this very long tweet chain, but I think its better I get it out there somewhere semi-public for people to read and try to understand me a little better. I got a lot of followers last night that kinda surprised me so I think its good I talk about this stuff now.