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Back in smash 4, I was a big ESAM fan. I played alot of pika and watched alot of his sets. Nowadays, I'm not really as much of a fan. The one thing I always admired and what kept my competitive drive for smash was ZeRo.
Back in smash 4, I was a big ESAM fan. I played alot of pika and watched alot of his sets. Nowadays, I'm not really as much of a fan. The one thing I always admired and what kept my competitive drive for smash was ZeRo.
Watching his play, hearing the stories of him flying people out to practice, it was very inspiring for me. It made me want to practice my tech skill when I was at school. I wanted to be as clean and precious as ZeRo. Most of the bigger tournaments I went to were Midwest Mayhams.
I had saw ZeRo here and there at those tournaments but I never wanted to get a picture with him. I wanted to focus on pools and trying to do decent at a bigger tournament (never really happened unfortunately). At MM10, after losing in pools, I saw ZeRo standing around by himself.
I thought, this was as good of opportunity to ask for a photo as ever. I was very nervous when I walked up to him. I was stumbling over my words, trying to ask for photo. He told me to relax and said he would happily get a photo with me. He was actually very cool.
I never shared this photo at the time cause I took a bad picture. I used to look back at this picture and remember the found memories of MM10 and remember why I practiced. Now, I just look at this with hatred. I really thought, even with school, even with a 40 hour job...
If I practiced I could be a great player. I could experience smash on the big stage and play with the best. Not only play the best, challenge them, beat them, make someone feel the same inspiration I did. Now.... it feels dirty to have these ambitions.
I hate that photo. I hate the idea of becoming a better player at smash. I hating how I feel! But its reality. ZeRo is not the person I thought he was. I hope he never comes back to smash tournaments.
At this point, I'm still debating if I should work towards my goal or if I should work to make this community safer. I'm sure I'll figure it out at some point but for now I'm gonna let time pass. I still wanna play smash but right now I'm still upset with everything.
If you made it this far, thank you for reading. This was mostly a vent rather then anything interesting
Tldr:
-ZeRo was an inspiration for me
-Im upset about everything but still thinking about stuff
-This was mostly a vent
Tldr:
-ZeRo was an inspiration for me
-Im upset about everything but still thinking about stuff
-This was mostly a vent
