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And here it is. Something I am starting here and have no idea how deep to get on Twitter. I'm going to defer to experts and get a feel for it. I pray each day to do the next right thing, this is part of it. https://twitter.com/tbeadick/status/1279473383969665025?s=20
I'll be sharing my own experience. My own experience with PTSD is NOT conventional. And please understand the focus will be how I was able to map my own blown mental pathology (signaling gets all f'd up) before "rewiring" the sumbitch. As any good Wireman would.
So please. And i do say PLEASE!!!! FOR FUCK'S SAKE@@!!!
This is not a sympathy thread. I have gone to a specific therapist for 2 years. I did that because my mind was literally blown.
I mean like the main transformer outside melted down.
This is not a sympathy thread. I have gone to a specific therapist for 2 years. I did that because my mind was literally blown.
I mean like the main transformer outside melted down.
I walked into my therapist's office (a clinical sociologist, there's a reason for that too) and told him exactly this. First 15 seconds:
"What I've been doing my whole life ain't working. Can you help me do something different?"
Because I wasn't getting along with anybody.
"What I've been doing my whole life ain't working. Can you help me do something different?"
Because I wasn't getting along with anybody.
There's a reason for that. I didn't understand that either.
I didn't understand SO MANY things. Now that I do I know there are many like me who are hiding. They're scared.
I want them to have a way to discover their own schematic.
And that's the deal.
I didn't understand SO MANY things. Now that I do I know there are many like me who are hiding. They're scared.
I want them to have a way to discover their own schematic.
And that's the deal.
No one else can do it. It's your own friggin head FFS.
My unconventional route IS NOT RECOMMENDED. I stayed away from conventional therapies, psychiatrists, psychologists. Most of them I talked to are fuckin fuckface fucks who don't have much experience dealing with trauma.
My unconventional route IS NOT RECOMMENDED. I stayed away from conventional therapies, psychiatrists, psychologists. Most of them I talked to are fuckin fuckface fucks who don't have much experience dealing with trauma.
There's a reason for that. I'm not saying that to disparage them. I don't wish childhood trauma on ANYONE. I just like to say fuckface fucks.
Ok we're going to explore communications and signaling on the cellular level. Here is a thread in progress. https://twitter.com/tbeadick/status/1279472564704702465?s=20
Cellular level communications. Mine was all f'd up. Still is. But I have a map, or a schematic - a diagram or a path to thought processes - for my own psyche. Had I not done that I would have literally gone insane. Perhaps I was. Perhaps I am. I don't give a fuck about labels.
Ok this is a thread on how signaling activates long buried traumatic memories. What is activated? Are actual memories activated? Do we have people walking around suddenly seeing themselves being raped, their parents dying in a car wreck, them almost dying in combat, etc?
In many cases I'm sure that is entirely accurate.
What I'm talking about is first the signals that most of us do not detect because of the voltage range (the range of our perception) and 2nd I'll be referring to cellular level signaling.
You see for so many victims of trauma
What I'm talking about is first the signals that most of us do not detect because of the voltage range (the range of our perception) and 2nd I'll be referring to cellular level signaling.
You see for so many victims of trauma
the painful memories are literally buried. Within the cells.
The memories are activated or "triggered" on the cellular level. We may not have a conscious memory of a specific trauma. Our bodies do though. That pain and trauma is recorded EXACTLY perfectly.
The memories are activated or "triggered" on the cellular level. We may not have a conscious memory of a specific trauma. Our bodies do though. That pain and trauma is recorded EXACTLY perfectly.
If signals are detected by our cells but not our consciousness - our subconsciousness not consciousness - we feel stuff that does not make sense.
But we attach it to things to make sense of it. Especially if we've been in denial for years, even decades.
But we attach it to things to make sense of it. Especially if we've been in denial for years, even decades.
And here we are. Each of these threads today, electronic/psyops/informational warfare/signaling are all connected. I wouldn't be so tuned in if not for my psycho older brother. So I can thank him for that. https://twitter.com/tbeadick/status/1279438135089192960?s=20
This is important. Deception on the front end buys years of "benefit of the doubt". Remember that. This is also important for a less important thread I'll pull in here too. https://twitter.com/RoguePOTUSStaff/status/847236210946736128?s=20