This is not failure. Grants applications are a shitty process and often reward ‘who’ rather than ‘what’ of research. And yes those ‘who’ are those for whom academia was built in the first place. https://twitter.com/celiamckee/status/1277834936247095297

During the pandemic, I have been working on my own imposter syndrome which is created and maintained by a deeply unjust, unequal structure that uphold capitalist white supremacist heteropatriarchy.

A friend did a probability calculation for me to achieve what I have so far...in publishing and academia.

Let’s just say that me and that snowball in hell are closely related.

I am not suposed to be here. I am the glitch in the matrix.

And that makes me anything but a failure.

Hasn’t taken away the imposter syndrome completely but it is helping.

We need to remind ourselves that ‘success’ often has little to do with ability.