1/3

I often struggle with feelings of inadequacy (a proper estimation IMO) as a pastor.

- I am often not the smartest one in the room.

- I am usually not the most spiritual person in the room.

- And I am not always the nicest person in the room.

2/3

I pastor people who are impressively more patient than me.

I pastor people who have a track record of faithfulness that is longer than my years on earth.

I pastor people who are smarter, older, wiser, younger, cooler and more educated than me.

In other words...I'm not that special. So why should I lead them? I've asked myself that question many times.

Confession: I've never wanted to be a pastor. But there was a moment in a gathering when I was 18 yrs old where...where I felt Jesus Spirit challenge (call) me to pastor

4/3

It has been a journey of dependency on Jesus.

I've walked out on the scary edge of faith because Jesus was there.

I have loved the difficult people along the way because Jesus was there.

I have cried with the broken & lost because Jesus is there.

5/3

I'm not that special. This is good for me to remember. It keeps me learning, listening, loving and ego-deflating (a critical practice for all who chose to serve).

It's humbling when you live your life in front of others (warts & all). But all along the way...Jesus is there