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Also to people I work with please understand this. I am always trying so hard. You have not idea how hard. https://twitter.com/CarmenReine/status/1276348949331357698
Re: ADD and being a full time writer.
I am constantly holding onto everything desperately with my *teeth*. My brain cannot do what typical brains do. It can hyperfocus or it can atomize itself. Nothing in between. When I say you have to keep on me for a thing I am deadly serious
I am constantly holding onto everything desperately with my *teeth*. My brain cannot do what typical brains do. It can hyperfocus or it can atomize itself. Nothing in between. When I say you have to keep on me for a thing I am deadly serious
Recently & for the first time I had a short fiction editor who was willing to kindly and without judgment check on me once a week for progress. Which is a lot of extra work for her, & I was humbled by her willingness.
But you know what? She got her story on time. #add
But you know what? She got her story on time. #add
Its not that I don’t want to be an organized person with every duck in its scheduled row
It is that I cannot, any more than a colorblind person can see red. I can’t make the chemicals on my own
& having to give up meds for two years while pregnant & nursing obliterated my work
It is that I cannot, any more than a colorblind person can see red. I can’t make the chemicals on my own
& having to give up meds for two years while pregnant & nursing obliterated my work
If you are part of my work or social life, just…understand I am always trying. I want to answer that email. I want to get it done. I want to be better
I strive. And often fail. My brain does some pretty good stuff. But it also doesn’t do things neurotypical brains can with ease
I strive. And often fail. My brain does some pretty good stuff. But it also doesn’t do things neurotypical brains can with ease
I love my life but I do have a job that is like having a final exam paper due all the time forever so I am constantly cruising at the limit of my executive function and stress management capabilities. I lose things in the mire all the time. #add
An example for those who don’t have #add:
You cannot ask me anything in the morning. Not what to have for breakfast, not what the baby should wear, not whether we’ll get pizza tonight.
I have a limited number of Choices I can make every day & I HAVE to save them for the book.
You cannot ask me anything in the morning. Not what to have for breakfast, not what the baby should wear, not whether we’ll get pizza tonight.
I have a limited number of Choices I can make every day & I HAVE to save them for the book.
It is really very much like daily spell slots in D&D
I can do this many magic missiles/executive decisions per day. Never know exactly what that number is, but once I reach it I will sit paralyzed at my computer unable to decide as little as what color hair a character has #add
I can do this many magic missiles/executive decisions per day. Never know exactly what that number is, but once I reach it I will sit paralyzed at my computer unable to decide as little as what color hair a character has #add
