What do you think there is to lose from just deleting Facebook and Twitter? It's something I come back to every year or so. There are so many justifications for social media but I'm not sure (at least in my case) that it's as necessary as I often think it is.

Recently I find the way events are presented on social media , as all interconnected plots in a grand narrative, pushes me further from the truth of what's going on. That this distorted reality is constantly mediated by people I know, therefore am biased about, doesn't help

Sometimes I just feel like I'm a PR person but instead of looking after someone else's image I am cultivating my own in the minds of people I have basically imagined. At its core, there is a deep inauthenticity at play, so subtle it is barely perceptible.

I feel great conflict between this fact and the contrary idea that I am on here 'fighting' for things. 'Debating' things. 'Standing up' for things. On Twitter, worthy causes tend to become mere commodities from which we extract value for ourselves, our profiles, our image.

Then there's the fact we all feel obligated in some way to have a take on everything that happens. That silence is always complicity. When sometimes, saying fuck all might be the kindest thing you do. The wisest, or humblest thing you do.

A few years back the culture war was very different. Basically, if you hadn't personally experienced an issue and you expressed a view, you were speaking over people. Today, if you don't speak up, you are called a fence sitter. I find it immensely confusing.

Pretty much every public scrape that Ive been involved in happened on social media. The exact same issues, when discussed in person, while still difficult, never EVER degenerated into the bin fires we see daily on here. Social media breeds disinhibition, every argument curdles

What use really does a person like me serve here? Really? Beyond promoting my own work, and the odd useful thread I might write in a rare moment of clarity, really this is just an ego trip. A vessel to further....me. A weapon to pile on and act out resentments.

What I'm sayin is....if I really gave as much of a fuck about the things I say I do, then I would probably just walk away from social media and never come back. But I can't, because my ego is always waiting with the sales pitch, telling me lies about who I really am.

I know none of you have any idea what Im talking about

Realistically, one cause is more than enough for one individual. Solidarity? Yes. But you quite simply cannot engage multiple battles on multiple fronts every day and not damage yourself and your cause.

For 20 years my sole focus has been poverty. I operate independently and always have. Sometimes I clique up with other individuals or groups where i feel collaboration has benefits. While the lack of interest in some quarters frustrates me, i cant force others to care or act.

And I dont want people lending their 'voice's to things I care about unless they are genuinely invested. I don't want to use informal social pressure to corral folk into saying or doing things they dont want to, or aren't ready to.

My thing is poverty. Class politics. I feel this issue runs through almost everything else in a way no other issue does. I can spend time trying to 'persuade ' others of that, or just fucking get on with it, making my values visible in what I do, not what I say on twitter.

And here's the real kicker - stuff like what I'm saying now is seen by many as naval gazing individualism. There's no great uptake for this kind of analysis. People want hot takes on what is trending....

....So when you really sit down and reflect on the deeper issues at play beyond politics, the algorithm punishes you. It feels like you are alone. That you are stupid. Irrelevant. So you hop on the next trend soon after for that sweet validation.