happy father’s day to my mom who had to try and be mom and dad when pops passed and had to deal with me losing control for many years when it happened. she’s still working hard to make it all work but our family has never been closer and we’re all taking care of each other these

days

it never gets less weird, it never hurts less, it never sucks less

i would walk across the earth to find a stone that could go in a staff and cast a spell that would bring him back for one day to show him everything

when he was in the hospital and i had to do my

goodbyes (no kid should ever have to do that) i had no idea what to say. all i could do was alternate over and over between telling him how much i loved him, and promising him i would do something great

i’m not sure i’ll ever feel like i’ll live up to the promise but i will

spend the rest of my life trying

happy father’s day to all of my friends parents who stepped in when they could, let me crash when i needed it months at a time, taught me the things my dad wouldn’t be able to, and helped sculpt me and guide me to where i am now, i truly couldnt

say enough thanks

if you’re young and don’t have a dad, i love u and i’m sorry. don’t replace him, but know good role models are out there. my dad dying was the single most defining, crushing, and derailing moment of my life, but i never let it stop me trying to be someone hed

be proud of

happy father’s day youtube for every video that fills in the gaps of paternal lessons- shaving, tying ties, what to tell a barber. no one tells you about that stuff when he dies

happy father’s day to my older brother who played such a big part in making sure i

didn’t throw my life away, and has always kept me on a good track when i’m feeling manageable, and who shares the same responsibility with me over our little brother who was way too young for all of this when it happened

happy father’s day to my fellow dead dad club associates

@nightwindsmusic i wouldn’t have survived my twenties with out ya sharing that and feeling less alone and weird @DisneyDweller you too. our jokes about the whole thing and the joy we find in it knowing it’s insane but helps are so alien to the world but i’m so glad we have it

finally happy father’s day to my late dad. i haven’t cried in years because i never wanted you leaving to be something that made it harder for me to do something great

this morning i cried a lot because i finally wish you could see it all

i miss you forever