we need to end the mental illness stigma, but also talking frankly about your mental illness with those close to you is emotional abuse, but also accepting the mentally ill people in your life for who they are is enabling them, but also

so confusing. really wish I could go back to being undiagnosed and prescription-less, so I wouldn't be compelled to think about any of this

it's so clear to me that mental health treatment has next to nothing to do with the patient and everything to do with other people's comfort.

therapy does not work for me, but if I tell people I'm going to therapy, they're comforted and feel less pressure to "help" me.

my prescriptions have done pretty much nothing except make me worry what will happen if I go off them and send me further inside my own head, weakening my ability to communicate my problems, which others take as a sign of my well-being.

And my stints in behavioral health units have been the most psychologically-scarring experiences of my entire life, but hey I'm out of your hair for a little and I come back eyes glazed over and Cured!

From my notes back then: "You have placed me in an environment that any sane human being would want to leave immediately, but visibly struggling to do so is used as proof of the necessity of my being here."

From Chekhov's "Ward No. 6"